“If you’re not going to see it through to the end, then don’t start; either you’re teaching your subconscious the habit of perserverence, or the habit of quitting.” I’m paraphrasing because I don’t remember the exact quote, but it’s the message that has stuck with me the strongest since beginning this program.
These last couple of weeks have been very hard for me, and to be quite honest, I haven’t been able to keep up. I’m not going to complain that the course is too demanding…it is what it is. I am completely aware that every part of it works in synergy with everything else. It would not be nearly as effective if it were not throwing in every possible mechanism to retrain the subconscious as possible. I just have happened to hit the busiest time in my professional life that I can ever remember experiencing.
Two weeks ago I literally walked away from my career as a registered dietitian to open my doors as an energy practitioner using a technique nobody has ever heard of before because a colleague and I developed it together. So, now I’m trying to build a brand new business from scratch, with the added pressure of having to convince all my skeptical friends and family (including my husband!) that leaving dietetics was a good thing for me, and that given some time, I’ll actually be able to make money in my new career.
Two weeks ago, my partner and I also (finally) managed to have published our book on the Trigger Release Method (see my Press Release for details) which outlines this technique. We’re holding our book launch in two days, and after that it’s full speed ahead to start filling our practitioner training course.
And somewhere in there, I’m still a wife and mother of two young kids, getting dinner on the table and trucking kids to and from extra-curriculars.
I’m swamped. I hear about others with their busy careers and wonder how they get through it all.
I gave up feeling guilty about not being perfect long ago, though. I am doing the very best I possibly can. I don’t watch TV. I don’t surf the web. I don’t spend time shopping for anything other than groceries. I don’t play computer games. It took me a week to watch a movie on Netflix last week because I watched it in bits while cooking dinners. My biggest “vice” is reading the newspaper! Everyone needs some downtime…
So that brings me to “promises”. I’ve promised myself that I will see this course through to the end, and I will. Everything with a date on it on my service card gets done. This week I decided that I was going to finally get around to getting a police record check so I can volunteer at my kids’ school. I filled out the form and took it to the station on Wednesday, where the told me the form had been updated, so I needed to get the new one from the school. So, I trouped to the school where, indeed, they had new new forms on hand. Back to the police station on Thursday, where I’m now told that there is also a cover letter that is now supposed to accompany the form. Called the school, and yes, it turns out they do have one of those which will be sent home via my daughter. Tomorrow, I will be back to the police station. It’s on the index card and has a date. It WILL be done.
I know I’m picking up good habits (and the skills to learn good habits!), so while things are difficult now, I will continue to follow along and absorb as much as I can.
I’m a pretty capable person who doesn’t generally like to admit to feeling overwhelmed, but if this post can help anyone else who is struggling to get it all done, I want you to know you’re not alone. I’m quite sure I’m not the only one. 🙂